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HEART PROBLEMS
I have met a girl before named Angel. A girl that I never thought would bring me such happiness that she would continue lingering in my head. It has been like 18 months since the breakup. I know that I keep telling myself that I have already forgotten her but just last night a dream or was it a nightmare. I dreamed about every single minute I was with her. It seems like I have slept for 2 years remembering every moment.
The story started when I was running late for a class more than 3 years ago. It was a rainy morning. I went straight to the canteen to eat some breakfast as I haven't eaten breakfast yet. As I entered the canteen, I saw my professor sitting at a table at the far right of the canteen drinking some coffee.
"Sir, I may I ask permission if I could eat some breakfast first?" feeling a little awkward that I even asked permission from my professor.
"It is fine, your still early actually for class. Class doesn't start till 8 30" my professor said even winking at me with a little of what I think was flirting.
"I better get to class now. Take your time, I'll just give you the activity." he added and left.
I went straight to the canteen lady.
"Manang, I will be having a cup noodle please." I told to her.
"Sandali lang ha, may nauna kasi sa'yo eh. Unahin ko lang siya."
"Sige po" I told her. I never really noticed that there was a girl in front of me.
"Miss pasensya na ha. Hindi kita namalayan dyan" I humbly told the girl in front of me.
"Its fine" she looked at me and gave me a smile.
I don't know what I am really feeling that time, but I was mesmerized by how she smiled at me, my tummy aches, and I think I would be sick (maybe because of the weather).
So I don't know exactly how I would react so I just bowed down and gave her a smile.
"Ah, I'm Angelica by the way" saying as she reached her arms to mine.
"Hi, I'm Michael, you could call me Mack for short" and I reached my hands to her and looked her in the face and smiled once again.
"I like your smile Mack" complementing me.
"Ah, Ica ito na noodles mo" Manang reaching the noodles to Angelica.
"Ito oh yung sa'yo Michael." reaching the noodles to me just the same.
"Ako na muna dito." as I offered to pay the two cup noodles. I reached the payment to Manang.
"Ah, Angelica I like your smile to." as I complemented her smile.
She just replied with a smile.
"I'll go ahead if you don't mind." she asked as she was rushing towards the door.
"Nice meeting you Angelica!" I told her as she was nearing the door.
"Nice meeting you too. You could call me Ica if you like"
"K, Ica. Bye for now." as I bid her goodbye.
8 months later I was the happiest guy to have an angel by my side.
2 years past and the worst thing has happened.
We broke up.
How?
It was our anniversary, 2 years that I have shared a moment with the girl that I felt the happiest. And yet, all dreams seems to end. There is no such thing as a happy ever after.
The problem started 5 months before our second year anniversary. It was my birthday back then. She wanted to surprise me. A birthday party. Well, I was surprised that is for sure. I never expected her to do so much effort during my birthday. The day progressed even more, and it was reaching night. I was tipsy. My girlfriend had another surprise in store for me.
She brought me as a gift my exes. I remember that I told her before that I missed the people that made me me. Never thinking that she would bring them to me during my birthday.
I was honestly surprised. My girlfriend went to me and pushed my exes and told me SURPRISE. In an exciting voice. I was shocked. I don't know what to feel at all.
I knew then that she was very assured that she would be the last girl that I would love, and I mean truly loved. She was sure that even if my exes were there is that she would feel assured that my love was still for her.
Honestly, I don't know how I felt that day. I saw the first person I loved my very first ex and there was still that spark. I don't want to feel this way was the words I keep saying to myself in my mind.
I love Ica, a lot. But what was I feeling.
The tipsiness I felt grew stronger. I know what I'm doing but I can't control myself. My first ex went to my room. Pushed me and then something started.
The door suddenly opened. It was Ica. Shocked by what she saw. I don't know what to say. I just ran out of my room. Went straight to the bathroom and there, still wearing my clothes I cried and cried. I opened the shower, thinking that I was a dirty man. I two-timed my girl.
All I could remember of the reaction of Ica was shock and anger in her eyes. She was stocked at that position.
I LOVE HER A LOT.
I went out of the bathroom wet, and naked. I didn't mind. I was also in shock that the girl I loved the most was hurt by me.
IT WAS HER FAULT. That I kept insisting in my head.
IT WAS HER FAULT.
I'm just but a guy.
The days grew very awkward. We both know that we still love each other but the memory of what had happened still lingers like a shadow. I did everything to say sorry. I went to there home with a dozen or so balloons with her favorite color. The color red. I gave it to her with a big bear that has a stitched belly saying SORRY Will you forgive me?
I knew she wouldn't accept it. The moment she touched the balloons she let it go. Gave a smile and looked a top.
"Ang ganda talaga ng color red no. It symbolizes love pero pati sakit at dugo kanya rin." she was saying as she looks to the sky.
"Your forgiven" she told me. But the love was not there. I felt it.
Days passed by. We still are together but it seems that were farther apart.
...to be continued
paxenxa po di ko po maituloy ng maayos naiiyak na po ako eh.....
